Booby Bondage Icky Pic

It’s the first month of the new year. The holidays have passed. Life is much less stressful than it has been in years. The gym membership is paid. The gym calendar is on the fridge with the classes I actually like circled. Starting next week I should be able to go to the weight loss doc and get back on the shots that were working so well in Texas.

Seems like a prime time to get my ass in gear and shape up some.

Yep, it is. Problem is that I cannot find any fucking motivation at all. I’m not unhealthy so my health is not motivation. I’m certainly not as strong as I used to be and as much as that bothers me, it’s still not motivation enough.

I hate the way I look in pictures… well, that might be enough motivation but with such easy access to photoshop and some creative camera angles and lighting I can almost convince myself that I look like the girl in my head.

With the right camera angle, lighting and crop man oh man, my ass looks fucking fabulous, my boobs a-fucking-mazing, my eyes, gorgeous. If I stretch just right, I can make the curve of my back look perfect.

I am downright fucking talented at making pieces of me look great. Then I see a picture of myself unedited and realize that no matter how much I think I look like the girl in my head, I simply do not.

Tonight, Daddy did some rope work on me that was so pretty. He took a photo of it and posted it… unedited. I am very tired tonight which translates to extremely emotional. So seeing that photo posted with no editing, every flaw so easily seen was really difficult for me. Especially, because when I saw the photo on his phone after he took it, I already knew how I would edit it to make it look presentable.

boobybondage (edited version)

I know how much it bothers Daddy when I get fussy over my photos, he loves every inch of me, even with all my flaws and not so pretty places. But I am a harder on myself and my skin is so thin that should someone decide to say something mean about the way I look in the unedited photos it would be really difficult for me not to let it really affect me.

So, anyway, I was trying not to say anything. And then I had a thought. If I want to look good in my photos, then I need to take my ass to the gym and get it into a shape I am much happier seeing in photos instead of complaining about him posting a photo that I think is unflattering, even it is the most accurate portrayal.

attentionwhore2I am an attention whore. Completely. I love to be in photos. I am an exhibitionist. I love to scene publicly, love to be naked or in some state of undress. I love sharing my photos, but I only get off on it if I feel like those watching the scene or viewing the photos will enjoy the view, will get off seeing me. When I feel like I look icky, I wonder how anyone else will look at that photo or see me on a spanking bench or tied to the cross and see something worth desiring.

My only motivation for getting into shape is my vanity. Is that a good enough motivation? I guess we’ll see.

2 thoughts on “Booby Bondage Icky Pic

  1. See, all I (and really anyone else) would think it’s “BOOBS!” Great, wonderful, gorgeous lusciously large BOOBS! You are gorgeous regardless of your size. Your confidence, your exhibitionism, your attitude are far more influential on how others view your beauty than your dress size!

    • Thank you, my pretty girl. And, most of the time I understand all that. But when all that is presented is one moment in time captured in a photograph it does not always capture those less photographable traits.

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